My Place In This World!

 

When I was in high school this song came out and I absolutely loved it.  The ironic thing is that even though I (vaguely) considered myself a Christian I had never listened to Christian music in my life and this of course was a big anthem within the Christian music genre at that time.

I hadn't heard it in years and then suddenly thought to purchase it off iTunes a few weeks ago, and only just now got around to actually listening to it.  It gave me chills because it totally seemed to apply to my spiritual journey from my start on the Pagan path up to now.  Ironic, isn't it?  One of the top comments on YouTube on this song was "Even if you listen to it without a religious mindset, it's an inspiring song that reaches to all of us, equally." It also seemed to apply to me finding my way in life as a woman and a mother.

"A life of pages
Waiting to be filled
A heart that's hopeful
A head that's full of dreams
But this becoming
Is harder than it seems

Feels like I'm
Looking for a reason
Roaming through the night to find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Not a lot to lean on
I need Your light to help me find
My place in this world
My place in this world"


 And hey, he's sporting a mullet, right?  I'm dating myself here. ;-)

Transformation

2012 has been a very spiritual year for me so far for a number of reasons.  And because my deeper spirituality  I am finding that (despite my struggle with emotional eating and accepting my body's change's within motherhood) I am loving and accepting myself a whole lot more.  The ironic thing is that I thought that I was in a good emotional place about myself before.  But as the winds of change keep coming I keep finding different and brighter ways of looking at things.

For instance I've had the same hairstyle for years... the Kate Gosselin, although I had it years even before her.  (I used to call it the Robert Smith, and any of you 70s or 80s children will know exactly what I'm talking about).  Anyhoo... a couple of months ago I finally found a new hairstyle that I thought might define me a little more, and it surprisingly turned out to be a much better fit.

 

Just a couple of weeks before that I got my "for the kids" tattoo that I'd been debating on a couple of years (right leg).

I like the changes but wasn't really aware that I felt I wanted or "needed" changes.  But so far the new look has done me a world of good, both outside and inside.